Saturday, October 11, 2008

Then the tears....

So about 2 months ago I found out that my Brother-in-laws visa was not going to be renewed which meant that my sister was taking her family back to Canada. Of course I have had these last 2 months to prepare and get ready for them to leave. I have been helping her pack her house for the last week. And now the truck is packed and they are getting ready to leave. I got to take the kids to breakfast this morning and spend time with them. I am not sure I can put into words what I am feeling today. Yesterday as we were putting the last of their things into boxes the tears started but I was still able to fight it. Watching them say goodbye to all their friends has been hard to. They are definitely loved here. And now its my turn to say goodbye!  The tears come. I can't fight it any longer. I AM SAD! 

Toni is more than my sister she is my best friend. They moved here when I was still in school and started dating Brian. Her dating advice was great. She helped me plan my wedding, she was there for the birth of my 2 boys. She has always been there to help me. Life is so much easier when you have someone you can count on to always be there for you. Of course she is my sister and I will see her often. but once or twice a year is not the same as almost every day. I will miss her. I will miss Brad and his great sense of life. He is a great person who is always so happy and funny. He is a good one to seek advice from and he has been a great friend to me as well as Brian. Clair... my babysitter. I will her and watching her grow into a beautiful young woman. She is so fun and full of life. Cale and Joe are so full of energy and life. They were always so good with Spencer. Ian is Spencer's friend and I am dreading the day Spencer will ask to play with Ian and I will have to try my best to explain that he can't. 

This whole situation sucks. It would be different if they wanted to go but they don't.  Is this truly how it is suppose to be?! I am not so sure I can do it. For now... the tears are freely flowing. 

Sorry for the rambling. I had to get it out. 

7 comments:

Marni said...

I am so sad for you. I know how difficult this has been. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. :(

Anonymous said...

I just cried reading your sweet entry. I am so sad about the whole thing because I know how sad it makes you. I hope that in your sad moments you are able to go to your Heavenly Father for comfort! We love you all!

Missy said...

The best and only thing I can offer that might help is our families love! We mourn with you too because it does make you so sad!

Leah said...

You are all so sweet and honestly it does help to know that we are surrounded by good friends and good family! you guys are great... thanks

rockstar said...

I am so sorry Leah! I was thinking about you all day. I hope you're feeling a little bit better as I'm writing this. I know how hard it is to say goodbye to someone you see all the time. Would love to chat sometime soon. Love ya!

Corinne said...

that is soo hard. it sucks that life isn't fair and that they had to leave. i am so sorry. if you need a break from the kids call me and spencer can come and play. kyson would love it.

Andrew and Lori Stewart said...

Leah, I'm so sorry to hear that Toni and her family had to leave. I know how close you two were, and I know what you mean about having family close by. I was really hoping they would have been able to stay. So sorry.